also ik this wasn't your main point but as to your first idea that some people have 100x of those amazing days as other people, I hate to admit it but some people actually do have way more of those feeling alive days, but the ratio is probably 30x rather than 100x. There was a point where I was swimming in a waterfall and feeling like "damn so life can be like this???"
hit the nail on the head with the productivity addict description, always thought endlessly tracking stuff was dumb
also ik this wasn't your main point but as to your first idea that some people have 100x of those amazing days as other people, I hate to admit it but some people actually do have way more of those feeling alive days, but the ratio is probably 30x rather than 100x. There was a point where I was swimming in a waterfall and feeling like "damn so life can be like this???"
I glossed over this in the pivot because it was too unpleasant to continue to entertain.
"I could live in a way that makes me happier, but happiness is not my highest goal"